If nothing works, have you thought about you having a spiritual problem, or been in spiritual battles? We are as physical as we are spiritual beings, sadly we are in a society that never consider the sickness of the soul and only treats the material aspects of our beings. Now the only ones who can help you with that is a priest, a trained priest in spiritual battles will try to discarded first if it is a mental issue but there are things that you write that make me think about spiritual attacks. It doesn't matter if you believe in God or Satan or not, they exist and the spiritual dimension exists. Now if you feel repulsion or reject the idea of a God or Jesus Christ probably you are what we called OPPRESSION or under the influence of evil spirits and that has a solution. Once you acknowledge the real origin of your struggles you can look for the solution and you will get better. I see it all the time!
I've had this thought process for a while. I felt haunted in a way when I lived with my parents. Depressed and full of anguish; I didn't know what to do with my life. I planned to die before I was 18. Once I started to pay attention to manifestations within my life it started to dissipate. From my other writings on this substack I had revelations in sobriety (6 years as of Tuesday) that a lot of it was rooted in my upbringing and how my father kept secrets for the majority of my life about his infidelity that it infected parts of mine. He focused his attention on me to lower my self esteem and ambitions to the point where I couldn't get why me of all people and what I did to him in order to obtain this attention. I found that his life was affected with his choices that demonized him as a whole. He still is this way to this day and I haven't ever forgave the demon that used to love me.
If nothing works, have you thought about you having a spiritual problem, or been in spiritual battles? We are as physical as we are spiritual beings, sadly we are in a society that never consider the sickness of the soul and only treats the material aspects of our beings. Now the only ones who can help you with that is a priest, a trained priest in spiritual battles will try to discarded first if it is a mental issue but there are things that you write that make me think about spiritual attacks. It doesn't matter if you believe in God or Satan or not, they exist and the spiritual dimension exists. Now if you feel repulsion or reject the idea of a God or Jesus Christ probably you are what we called OPPRESSION or under the influence of evil spirits and that has a solution. Once you acknowledge the real origin of your struggles you can look for the solution and you will get better. I see it all the time!
I've had this thought process for a while. I felt haunted in a way when I lived with my parents. Depressed and full of anguish; I didn't know what to do with my life. I planned to die before I was 18. Once I started to pay attention to manifestations within my life it started to dissipate. From my other writings on this substack I had revelations in sobriety (6 years as of Tuesday) that a lot of it was rooted in my upbringing and how my father kept secrets for the majority of my life about his infidelity that it infected parts of mine. He focused his attention on me to lower my self esteem and ambitions to the point where I couldn't get why me of all people and what I did to him in order to obtain this attention. I found that his life was affected with his choices that demonized him as a whole. He still is this way to this day and I haven't ever forgave the demon that used to love me.